I must say I'm on my second week of pureed foods and it's getting a bit harder for me. Although I can eat anything I want as long as it's pureed, my stomach isn't content with everything. On top of that, I'm not able to drink the 64 oz of liquids plus the 3 meals plus the protein shakes. It's very challenging for me and I'm still trying to figure out how to schedule it properly. I'm also finding that I'm hungry at night and I think it's because I haven't been able to fit in my last shake prior to bedtime. This is something I'm going to have to bring up with the nutritionist this week.
Otherwise my energy levels are up! I'm able to drive around to do things, which has been a blessing. However I make sure not to overdo it. If I'm tired, I stop. I do continue to get pain in my incisions and can't bend down from my waist because it hurts in the area where my port is. I just have to continue to be cognizant of the fact that I'm not fully recovered and am still healing.
Numerous people have asked me to describe exactly what was done and it has been hard for me to properly explain it. If you are interested in understanding the technicality of this procedure, you can visit:http://www.obesitysurgery.ca/lapband/how-does-it-work.php. It's actually a clear, quick rundown of what is done. It even has small illustrations to show where the band and port are placed.
Emotionally, this has been a rough week. I am starting to crave sweets, which I know I can not have. On Saturday and Sunday, I became fully aware of how many places do not carry sugar free items. This is upsetting and discouraging. I can't fathom how in a world where Diabetes is continuing to rise, there are no sugar free items! I also want to grab a juicy burger and bite into it but know that I can not. It's a lot of work and I can not emphasize how much effort I'm putting into this. It's life changing and an eye opener for me. I have to sit here and make sure I cut all my medication into pea sizes. On top of this, I'm feeling useless because I am still unable to lift objects. I know I'm supposed to be relaxing and taking it easy but I also want to accomplish things. It's definitely teaching me to slow down but I'm beating myself up emotionally for it.
On the same note, I want to restate the fact that I did not have this surgery to look a certain way. I do not have a certain "weight goal" in mind or clothing size. I did this to make me feel better and to improve my health. I was blessed that the insurance did cover the entire procedure due to my medical history and family history of obesity. If it was that easy for me to lose the weight on my own, I would have done it in a heartbeat. I've tried every single diet out there and even though I lost some weight with each of them, I gained even more afterward. I know that this might have seemed like the easy way out, but it definitely wasn't. Anyone who has seen me eat recently, will vouch for me. I chose to do this as a final straw and it is the best thing I have done, besides getting married and buying a house. Not everyone is going to agree with what I did, which is fine, but I'm asking for people to respect my decision. I just want to feel healthy and feel like a "normal" woman and I'm hoping all these emotions are attributed to P.M.S.!
Until next time....Peace, Love and Harmony xoxo
